Yearly they come around in the mood of celebration
Riding in their fancy cars with their beautiful family
As they gather they feel chuffed discussing
About their jobs and life achievements
Their hearts filled with joy bring the expression of a
smiling face
And the merry go round as I observe from afar
But here I am alone, lost in my own thought
Reminiscing about the yesteryears
When the thoughts of adulthood filled my childhood mind
In bide was I eager, wishing the days were here already
Day and night do I ruminate carefully laying out things to
do
But here I am, lost and confused in my own world
Though my eyes are widely open
But barely can I see beyond my present state
Thinking arduously about everything
Wishing I could know where exactly I got it wrong
Could it be that I didn’t plan well enough?
What was my self-approved plan missing?
Daily do I ponder on these things
Suddenly did a small still voice came talking to me
Bringing to my remembrance all of my past deeds
How I turned down all godly advise from warm-hearted
individuals
How I slowly let pride in like a dropping water
And turned my house of plenty into a house of nothing
Realising all of these, I couldn't help but scream out loud
Oh! What have I done!
Oh! What have I done!
Never did I know what I was getting myself into
Slowly did I put my life on slow-track as a result of my
attitudes
Now it’s like I'm on standstill just like the water in a
pond
And here I am hoping that grace for a new opportunity will
find me soon
That I may never be left behind